My perception of god

I know i am violating what our english teachers would have taught us during the school to use only capital 'G' while writing the word god.I followed this practice till the time I realised that there is no coherent reason behind it.With my age my perceptions of god have also been kept on changing.I remember going to temple holding my mother's hand at a time when i had just graduated from infancy to childhood and many things are often taken for granted at that age.This temple saga continued untill my inner conscience woke up to ask for the reason.But by then it was adoloscence and my doing rounds around the temple behind girls stood as an answer for it.:).Jokes apart this age forces us to seek the support of some unknown entity called god as we get tremendously pressurized at that intermediate age to take some crucial decisions of life though we are not mentally ready for it and we will not have time to think about the where,what and why questions about god.

When we reach the age of an adulthood,we would have lost almost all the minutes of fun and its the time when lot of strings get attached to us in the form of family,parents,children etc and we find ourselves piled up in a heap of responsibilities from where we try to perceive god as a wish fulfilling mechanism.We go to the temple with the hope that god will do something to our inability of bridging the gap between our wish and its becoming true in the reality.This belief system is so strong that if our wish gets fulfilled we give hundred percent credit to god and if it doesn't then we attribute that failure to ourselves.Because we fear that god will stop showering his blessings on us if we blame him for the unfulfillment of our wishes.

Actually we are oblivious of the fact that it's we who gave such color to god.I do believe that there is some unknown force which controls this world to which people attribute the name called god.if at all it is true i am sure he wouldn't appreciate the way people are perceiving him by whtsoever means it may be and he would never expect the people to pray to him(come on he can't be so mean).because he created the people and put them in the world and its for them to discover their purpose and live up to it.And its as much like demeaning him to go to the religious clubs(temples etc) to beg him or bribe him to get the things done.he is actually keeping up the responsibilty of controlling the world very diligently and expects every creature in the world to show the same diligence in being dutiful to their purposes of being here without bugging him.

PS:- God If at all you happen to read this post and find it derogatory or satirical.Please don't deprive me of rambha and urvashi when i reach you after my death :).